Pre-Interview Nerves

It's almost Interview day - 36 hours to go and I am absolutely Bricking it!

I can't even remember the last time I actually went for a Job Interview - I am pretty sure it was 2003 and it was very informal really (it was shop work).

This one is obviously going to be a little more intense because of the Job itself - I will be handling confidential files and organising specific things, so there is the element of being very independent - and ensuring I don't cock-up! Understandably, I am as nervous as hell.

But, I am determined and will succeed - and this time, I will be in control of the nerves and not my nerves controlling me. Life has to change - I am not getting any younger and if I don't change my lifestyle now, I never will and I don't want to be 'set in my bad ways' - Life is for living and I have spent far too long as a recluse, time to make myself known to the world and achieve something I can be proud of.

I still want to fulfil that dream of going to Australia, I want to achieve this while I still have a little youth on my side - I want adventure, I crave it. I don't want to wake up some day, in my 30's (which isn't that far off now!) having never achieved my own personal dreams and goals, I aspire to be a better person - to give something to the world. My illnesses have and are stopping me to a degree, but I have never been more determined to overcome these and live my life how I want to, not how my fears tell me to.

I just have to remember my dreams and hopefully this will empower me to embrace the extreme nerves and live my dreams.

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